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Away from books, back to civilisation, few more days to the final last paper.
My 2PM cd arrived today! My obsessive fangirling ways are back, it's crazy.
Friends, aren't we glad we got to see 2PM at the kpop concert last december before they got super duper famous?
And if we knew leaderjay could speak english we wouldn't look as stupid doing all those handsigns to him :(
And if we knew taec was going to get this hot we wouldn't have just focused on khun.
See. fangirling again. Sigh.
Tech Support: Hello … how can I help you?
Customer: Well, after much consideration, I’ve decided to install
Love. Can you guide me through the process?
Tech Support: Yes. I can help you. Are you ready to proceed?
Customer: Well, I’m not very technical, but I think I’m ready. What do I do first?
Tech Support: The first step is to open your Heart. Have you
located your Heart?
Customer: Yes, but there are several other programs running now.
Is it okay to install Love while they are running?
Tech Support: What programs are running ?
Customer: Let’s see, I have Past Hurt, Low Self-Esteem, Grudge
and Resentment running right now.
Tech Support: No problem, Love will gradually erase Past Hurt
from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent
memory but it will no longer disrupt other programs. Love will
eventually override Low Self-Esteem with a module of its own called High
Self-Esteem. However, you have to completely turn off Grudge and
Resentment. Those programs prevent Love from being properly installed.
Can you turn those off ?
Customer: I don’t know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
Tech Support: With pleasure. Go to your start menu and invoke
Forgiveness. Do this as many times as necessary until Grudge and
Resentment have been completely erased.
Customer: Okay, done! Love has started installing itself. Is that
normal?
Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base
program. You need to begin connecting to other Hearts in order to get
the upgrades.
Customer: Oops! I have an error message already. It says, “Error
- Program not run on external components.” What should I do?
Tech Support: Don’t worry. It means that the Love program is set
up to run on Internal Hearts, but has not yet been run on your Heart. In
non-technical terms, it simply means you have to Love yourself before
you can Love others.
Customer: So, what should I do?
Tech Support: Pull down Self-Acceptance; then click on the
following files: Forgive-Self; Realize Your Worth; and Acknowledge your
Limitations.
Customer: Okay, done.
Tech Support: Now, copy them to the “My Heart” directory. The
system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty
programming. Also, you need to delete Verbose Self-Criticism from all
directories and empty your Recycle Bin to make sure it is completely
gone and never comes back.
Customer: Got it. Hey! My heart is filling up with new files.
Smile is playing on my monitor and Peace and Contentment are copying
themselves all over My Heart. Is this normal?
Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes awhile, but
eventually everything gets it at the proper time. So Love is installed
and running. One more thing before we hang up. Love is Freeware. Be sure
to give it and its various modules to everyone you meet. They will in
turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.
Customer: Thank you, God.
The Christian life is a pilgrimage. At times the road is difficult, and we get lonely. Sometimes we may be discouraged and consider abandoning the journey. It is at such times that God will place a friend alongside us. One of God's most precious gifts to us is friends who encourage us and lovingly challenge us to "keep going".
According to Scripture, a friend is one who challenges you to become all that God intends. Jonathan could have succeeded his father to become the next king of Israel. But he loved his friend David, and he encouraged him to follow God's will, even though it meant Jonathan would forfeit his own claim to the throne (1 Sam 19:17).
The mark of biblical friends is that their friendship draws you closer to Christ. They "sharpen" you and motivate you to do what is right. True friends tell you the truth and even risk hurting your feelings because they love you and have your best interests at heart. (pro 27:6)
Be careful in your choice of friends! Jesus chose His closest friends wisely. He did not look for perfect friends, but friends whose hearts were set to follow God. It is equally important to examine the kind of friend you are to others. As a friend, it is your duty to put the needs of others first (Pro 17:17). Strive to find godly friends who will challenge you to become the person God desires. When you have found them, be receptive to the way God uses them to help you become spiritually mature. Strive also to be the kind of friend that helps others become more like Christ.
:)
I haven't updated for almost a month, lots to say, lots to comment, but it seems i can't really pin point anything right now, except this really, really super duper weird feeling i'm experiencing for the past few weeks. Ever had your mind completely controlling your mood and feelings for the entire day? Well that's what i'm experiencing, again.
Spiritual markers, spiritual markers, spiritual markers. These 2 words have been on my mind for the past week ever since youth group last sunday. What are my spiritual markers? Are my spiritual makers those times where i have experienced breakthroughs in my life, strayed away from god and finally returning to his side again? I think i'm at the point in my life where i yet again make another mark for myself, but yet my mind seems to take over at certain points, it feels as if running away is the best option.
TRUST. TRUST. TRUST.
that's what i need to keep telling myself. To trust him in this area. trust.
Oh man, nationals end in a week, and mid years start in 2 weeks. sigh.
i was trying to look up their music video on youtube but i found practically no good quality ones. strange.
This past 3 months have been hectic, crazy and unbelievable, from orientation, to wild birthday celebrations, staying out till midnight, to playing for chapel in school, competitions and much more, i seriously don't know how i can go on because i haven't been studying at all! Terms are in 2 weeks, and bowling has a camp next week, so that means no studying AT ALL, and i so don't want to end up in SSP.
enough complaining, but i have this sudden outcry to all my friends whom i have barely talked to since the start of this term, or maybe since last year, i miss you guys, i miss talking to you guys and why didn't some of you come to my dinner last week huh! Shame on you, you know i'm talking about you. Hope to catch up soon (:
Firstly, thank you guys for the bag of letters! I was happily showing off to other ogls because they got nothing from their og kids. HAHA. okay so anyway, there are alot of things i want to say to you guys, because i didn't really have a chance to say it to you guys on the last day of orientation after campfire partly because i kind of lost my voice and it was hella noisy in the concourse, so please be patient with me here!
I couldn't ask for a better og, or for better ogl mates in leading you guys, because you guys were simply the best! Do you know how worried the 4 ogls were for the group after second day, cause you guys gave us a feeling that you all didn't want to be in AC AT ALL. I practically sent alon 10 over messages in the night assuring him everything was okay and you guys just needed time to warm up. I really hope the whole orientation experience has helped you to love the school more than I do.
Despite having 4 ogls leading you guys, you guys do realise that we have had some miscommunication between the 4 of us at certain times, I'm really sorry about that, we ogls do make mistakes too, and i'm not afraid to say it out loud! But you guys have been so cooperative i really thank each and every one of you for listening to us!
This whole ogl experience hasn't been easy, the truth is, on the first day of ogl camp i was still skeptical in whether i was fit or qualified enough to lead my juniors. But after all the rehearsals, preparation, and finally meeting you guys, it really made me grow alot, i felt i really learnt alot in leading you guys, and i really hope that you have learnt something in return too. I may not be an outstanding ogl, but i do hope that i have at least someway or another make your orientation experience a good one.
I really wished we had more time together so i could know each and every one of you so, so much better.
OMGG I'M GETTING SO WHINNY I SHOULD STOP.
To my other 3 ogl mates, alon, brenda and gail, ahhh, we have done it! I've gotten to know each and every one of you so, so much better, it really does suck that orientation has to come to an end.
Nat, sorry for lying to you all the time HAHA, but you enjoyed the games right, and do you realise i shared a bunk with your CCAAB group during CCAAB camp but i never had a chance to get to know you?!?! okay i bet you didn't remember. HAHA.
Gwee Jie, at first i couldn't get your name right, but now that i do! I really hope that you enjoyed orientation, you were so, so supportive, it's really great to get to know you and have such a lovely og kid like you!
Doreen, I'm so so sorry i didn't come find you on the first day of orientation, i was the ogl who called you some more! So sorry about that, anyway, don't be too worried about school lah, you've only finished your first week of school! Feel free to ask me more questions if you are still worried, haha.
Jolynn, a great dancer in the making! You really did step out of your comfort zone when you played the mud games right, i admit i should have pushed you more, but alon did his job, and i really hope you enjoyed it despite the dirtiness!
Rachel Clare, haha if only we had found out that we shared a common interest in music earlier then we can spazz about them all the way! i really do hope you decide to stay in ac, you will right! Then we can sing and dance to all their songs whenever we meet AHAHAH.
Retarded Rachel, you don't know how happy i am when you said you will be staying in AC! You made me worry all night long okay. Major camwhore, i hope to see more pictures with you and the og up on facebook throughout this year okay!
Nicholas, you somehow give me the impression that you are very matured, even more matured than i am! That is good! You make me feel as if you really know what path you want to take, what you want to do and so on! A very independent person!
Ernest, i see you as a typical barker boy, in a good way! HAHA. the first moment i saw you, AH, the barker look. Your note really cracked me up when i saw it, i'm serious, you got no words to say to us ah! HAHAHA. thanks anyway!
Faith, you know the message that you send back to me on the first day? WOW, that really made me feel as if i've done a really good job and that you really enjoyed orientation even though it was like only the first day! OG REP, now i pass on the duties of taking care of the group to you okay!
Rocky, You always cheered when you had to, especially during mass rally! I saw you cheering, and it really encouraged me to cheer louder for you guys too despite being damn tired. The responsible one, always helping me carry stuff. A big thank you to you man!
Emily, would you be offended if i said you were like the big sister of the group? HAHA. always looking out for your fellow og mates, spurring them on to cheer whenever the rest were tired. We couldn't have functioned well as an og group without you!
Samuel, I really do hope you find a CCA of your choice! Don't worry so much lah, got alot of time to choose one! And i do hope those naming of the different dance parts did help you in learning the dance better!
Kah Howe, i really hope you do feel better! No problem on filling you in with what you have missed for the 2 days you weren't here. That's my job! haha, don't fall sick again okay. or else you will miss alot more stuff! HAHA.
Brandon, I don't know why but i feel i can talk to you very easily, HAHA. always the helpful on, helping me carry the shoebag with our stuff and all. I HEARD YOU ARE JOINING DANCE! WAY TO GO MAN! Do us proud! haha.
James, wow i would have to say you fit in really fast despite missing like the first 2 days of orientation! You gave us no problems at all! Always the enthusiastic one, i wonder how the og would be like without you man. I'm serious.
You Jing, you know those messages that you always send back to me after i send out messages to the group, even though it's just like a small thing, but it really encouraged me because your messages always tells me that you are always looking forward to the next day!
TO EVERYONE IN DINAS. I hope that i will not just see you around in school, but meet up with you guys every now and then to check out how each and every one of you are coping in ac! I LOVE YOU ALL. If you guys have any questions to ask about subject combi, ccas, ogl stuff, school stuff, feel free to facebook me, call or message me!
By the way! My chapel band audition went well! We will be playing for chapel on the 2nd of march! Do support us!
Stumbled across this beautiful song by katy perry yesterday.
Comparisons are easily turned
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in in your eyes I'd like to stay...
stay....
I can't stop listening to this song. I think i'm uber weird, i seem to find interest in break ups rather than the actual relationship, i seem to be looking forward to the "i don't love you anymore part", more focused on how to mend that broken heart rather than the time being together. This song's perfect for twilight's sequel new moon, i keep reading the part where edward leaves, ah, now that's another sign of my insanity.
We will sing, sing, sing
And make music with the heavens
We will sing, sing, sing
Grateful that You hear us
When we shout your praise
Lift high the name of Jesus
What's not to love about You?
Heaven and earth adore You
Kings and kingdoms bow down
Son of God, You are the One
You are the One we're living for
You are the love that frees us
You are the light that leads us
Like a fire burning
Son of God, You are the one
You are the one we're living for
Sing, sing, sing - Chris Tomlin
Sing to the lord your praises for him, despite the hectic schedule and mountains of homework we have right now, remember to take a walk with the Lord, set aside time to talk to him and listen to him.
Because one part of my wall was "posterless" so i decided to fill it with old magazine photoshoot spreads pasted on a board, further adding ribbons over them so that you can clip stuff onto the ribbons with paperclips. Good idea huh! You can reuse those old magazines that you don't read anymore and ribbons that you have gathered from the presents you got during christmas. Makes a great notice board by the way.
I do this every year without fail, ever got bored of your stinking old file, or just don't like the plain design on it, well i wrapped my ac file with a wrapper i bought from borders, its one of a kind and saves you money on buying another file =)
I gathered all my necklaces and bracelets the other day and i didn't realise there were that many! I'm still trying to figure out on how to store my stuff without them rusting so incredibly fast like what happened to all my earrings.
As we are at such a confused stage in the our lives right now, we somehow begin to forget that he has everything planned out for you, all those worries, or perhaps sometimes maybe desperation in wanting to get into relationships are all just making you feel troubled for nothing. Though i have long past that stage, i realize that my values, thinking and actions before were so, so, so childish, immature, and i didn't trust the lord at all.
I somehow forget that god has planted someone out there for me, it's just that now is not the time, maybe in a few months, few years will that person appear, but i realize that if you walk with the lord, close to his side, you'll have nothing to fear. Trust in the lord, and wait.
or in other words,
"You have to be a princess in order for the prince to find you."
Make sense? I'm not talking about you have to have perfect weight, height, look. No no no, it's spiritually. I'm still not perfect spiritually, and i believe i do have a long way to go.
This youth camp has indeed abolished those immature values that i used to believe in, answered alot of my questions i have had in me for a really long time and most importantly, i got to know my youth group better. Though we aren't a church that has a youth group that consists of hundreds of youths, but just a small number of 11, i believe it's also a blessing in disguise, because we can open up and not be worried about letting hundreds of others know.
The camp also made me realise that sometimes humans can be such selfish creatures, with never-ending comparisions with others you think who are better or lousier than you, jealously, argueing, complaining, if you think about it, having all those grudges, having all those selfish thoughts, will they make you feel good? They'll just make you look like you are such an unfriendly and annoying person to be with. Sometimes i think people blog just to show off to others how interesting their life is, which i confess i do do that sometimes.
The camp also answered another question of mine. Sometimes you think this person is so nice to you, wanting to be your friend, telling you about their deep and darkest secrets, but then someone pointed out to me that, that person could actually be using you, using you to get what the person wants. I have been dealing with this for probably weeks now yet i could not pin point the reason behind why i felt so annoyed and frustrated at times.
Okay, okay okay, enough of all these "emoing". Anyway, youth camp was really, really enjoyable, from life-changing sessions, having sunrise worship at 6am in the morning, watching cute japanese swimmers train at the pool from your room window, to cycling at pulau ubin and drinking coconuts, and a movie marathon till 2am in the morning. It was really, really, enjoyable, and we are really blessed to have such an aweseome club to stay at, wished it could have been longer!
I'm starting to zone out abit cause of lack of sleep haha.
happy new year in advance people.
I figured i should update and sing praises for melbourne before i head off for youth camp, we are going to pulau ubin to cycle, crazy, but yes, i enjoyed melbourne to the max, i can totally imagine myself studying there in the near future but i know that's not going to happen because my parents claim they are bankrupt after sending my brother there. Melbourne's full of asians, so you won't have to worry because you would stick out of the crowd like a sore thumb. I believe if i continued to stay there for another month or so i'd have picked up the aussie slang.
Okay so the main purpose for this trip, kor's graduation. I was shocked to find out how big his university cohort really was, the graduation ceremony was held in a football stadium, imagine the size of that, with the seats completely filled with audiences, while the inner ring of seats were occupied by graduants. So there was this large stage with 12 other smaller stages, and when the graduant's name flashed on the screen, it means it's his or her time to come up on stage to collect his or her's certificate. Rather funny, no one would announce your name, it all happens in silence. It looked as if tons of people in harry potter robes were graduating heh. 
One proud moment, save me from the embarrassment when my parents were the only one going "YEAH! WOOT! YAY!!" when my brother came up on stage and the rest of the audience were just, staring.
Next purpose of this trip, shoppingzzzz. DUH. My dad had to meet up with us in melbourne only on the third day of our trip because he had some office function back in singapore, so with my brother off to his friend's place, it was shopping all the way for me and my mum. Can you believe we actually shopped for 6 hours nonstop on the second day at bridge road, this factory outlet street? From supre, to diva, sportsgirl, valley girl, you name it, with seen every outlet at least 3 times. Plus items that were on sale in each of these shops, fabulous, can you imagine i bought 8 tops, 2 dresses, 3 bottoms, 2 bags and heaps of jewelry that mounted to no more than $250 singapore dollars. Now that's an achievement. 
I bought ALL of this only on the second day of the trip. Imagine the bigger pile at the end of my trip i had to carry back home.
Okay i'm sorry to burst your bubble, but next purpose was food. HAHA. Mind you, we did not eat fish and chips everyday, melbourne was so asian-fied, we only had western for lunch twice during our entire stay, other than those 2 days we had indian, vietnamese, japanese, hongkong food, KOREAN BBQ, NANDOS GRILLED CHICKEN (I'm starting to get EXCITED just thinking about it),DUCK RICE. WOW. Nothing compared to Singapore, the duck there was, juicier, with a certain crispyness to the skin. YUM. Too bad it wasn't a habit of mine to take pictures of what i would be gobbling up. 
Doesn't this make your mouth water. Hanging out with your brother's friends can really be a plus for you, especially they take you to really nice desert places, like this place, max renuer, they have one outlet in singapore at the esplanade but it's nothing compared to the real one as they say. 
We had this on a half day tour we went on together with coffee. Now Speaking of coffee.... 
I drank coffee everyday, i am not kidding. More than my usual dose that i need during the exam period, not that i needed the caffeine, it was because the coffee in aussie was just simply awesome, every cup we bought had some standard in them, their gloria jeans did not dissappoint me at all, yet roadside stall coffee outlets were just as good! 
Okay, so Tours. You had to satisfy your old folks right? So we went on half day and full day tours. Pretty interesting because they took you to this place where you take a train, the puffying billy, and you get to hang out of the window. Yes, like half of your body is out of the train, so you are like hanging for your dear life. 
My parents almost killed themselves when they realized they signed themselves up for a bushwalking tour, which means ALOT of walking. Pretty hilarious, they are really lazy people. 
We met these 2 cute young german boys while bush walking, they didn't want us to enter the viewing area but we just passed them with a breeze haha. 
Meet my new boyfriend! This fish is TOO CUTE! it was happily swimming past us when suddenly it opened it's mouth at us and smiled. HAHA. We visited the melbourne aquarium on the day we didn't have a tour.
I'm too tired explaining stuff, i'll let the pictures do the talking.
My photobucket died on me ): Hopefully i'll upload more tomorrow.
I'm right now immersing myself into twilight books again, my brother bought me the first and second book for me for christmas! It's a great way to relax and recover from jetlag, while you are sprawled out on your couch, absorbing every single word in the book. I am so going to get the twilight dvd when it comes out next year.
Now that i'm dead beat, deprived of sleep, while listening to twilight's soundtrack, it's a really good soundtrack, well to me at least, most of all i'm flying off to melbourne tomorrow, oh no, i need to catch up on my sleep before my sleep takes over those precious hours of shopping in Melbourne.
so i guess this is it.
BYE FREAKS, I'M FINALLY GETTING OUT OF THIS TINY ISL
charm bracelet.
detail of the beads.
long beaded necklace.
can't wait to get out of Singapore manzzzz.
Bracelet made out of shell pieces.
Shell details.
Pink Bracelet.
Pink bead details.
Green Bracelet. TAKEN ):
Green bead details.
Purple Bracelet. TAKEN ):
Purple bead details.
I did all these today. Unfortunately my mother stole the green and purple bracelets. Well, i'm just posting these to try my luck, was thinking of selling them at S$6, same price as those sold outside.
If you are a good friend, i might even give it to you for free! Kidding lah, i don't plan to earn any money from this anyway, feel free to tell me the colours you would like and i'll make them in a jiffy.
My parents were talking about this the other day, ask yourself, how many good friends do you have, close friends, friends who will be there for you not just through jc but through with you for the rest of your life, when you are in trouble they'll be the first ones to come to your rescue, when you need them over at your house they'll rush down to your side, when you are sad they'll be the first one to notice it, they don't even need to ask how you are feeling when they already know how you feel, and you don't need to announce to them about your birthday, because they'll remember it, friends who will step forward to arrange your funeral without any hesitation if you.... Most of all, they are friends that you can count on.
ASK YOURSELF.
How many 'real' friends do you have?
I would say, i have no more than 5 of these friends. Too little you may wonder? Well they are more than enough. It's impossible for all these friends that you know now to stick with you for the rest of your life, those number of friends that you have made on facebook don't even matter at all. Let's say, out of 1000 of them, how many can you count on? Maybe less than 10.
popularity isn't about everything.
in the end, you'll just end up alone, because those are not your true friends at all.
Seems pointless to blog about your daily life here because it feels as if people blog just to show to others that they are busy everyday with stuff to do and putting down those who wander around in life with nothing to do.
I'm kind of suffering from 2pm withdrawal symptoms although it has been more than 3 weeks since they stepped on shore this sunny island. come back cuties.
I hate this moodswing i'm having right now.
don't you think that sometimes the internet makes you think that you are close to or know that person, even if you have never ever spoken to that person before, and even though that person's probably on the other side of the world right now. Then it makes you think about things, and make you imagine all the 'what ifs'.
my gosh, i think i should stop coming online every single day and do something about my life.
